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23 February 2010 @ 04:07 am

Today, we would have been together for four years; married for two years and five months, and some days.

I have a doctor's appointment with Dr. Perry today. Somewhere between now and then, I need you to help me figure out whether or not to bring up the medication errors on the hospital's/doctors'/nurses' behalf... Or if I should just let them go and chalk it all up to being part of some bigger life scheme?

I need reinforcement to tell me that it wasn't my fault, because I wasn't there when you were last admitted into the hospital. It wasn't, right? I can't be blamed... I guess. But I can't stop feeling like I should be held accountable for it all, since I was your wife -- your partner.

I feel like all of this should be put behind me, but this is a new milestone since you've passed away; and it's the first time I've been to see her since you were in the ICU and she was talking to us about you going into hospice.

I just hope that today goes more smoothly than I'm thinking it will right now.

Love you.
Current Location: Valparaiso, In
Current Music: "Just Breathe," Pearl Jam
RACHEL DIANNErdfreak on February 23rd, 2010 11:44 pm (UTC)
aaah, that's be hard; sorry to hear this. :(