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21 May 2010 @ 02:25 pm
4 years and counting  
Hello Mommy,

Today is the anniversary of your service. I found the videotape of Dad's birthday from just before you passed. I didn't realize just how much footage of you I got. I thought I only had a little bit and didn't have you talking at all. But I do have you talking. I have you smiling. I have you talking to daddy just like it was any other day. It's been 4 years now. I still miss you. I hit a rough spot last year that I'm just now getting over. I spent a long time wondering if I was going to lose my apartment and have to move back in with dad. Things are looking up. I have a new job that appears to be something that will last longer than a couple of month. Of course, I'm thanking God for my turn of good fortune because I specifically asked for help and promised I would do better than my best at this new job. I plan to make good on this promise. My cats are doing well and yes I said cats. I have 2 of them now. The new one is named Diablo and is definitely a holy terror. I think you would like him. He acts like Oliver sometimes and claws like Poohbear. I still think about you a lot. Daddy finally got rid of the bed you and him shared. He really needed to. It still had your blood on it and all he was doing was keeping it cluttered up. He's doing lots better. Some days are still hard, like your birthday. I counted it up. You would have been 59. Ok. I think I've written enough now. I love you Mommy.

Your number one girl,

Courtney :)
Current Location: home
Current Mood: happyhappy
Current Music: my roommate talking about D&D
shazza59 on May 22nd, 2010 12:59 am (UTC)
Your notes to "Mommy" always make me tear up. Congratulations on your new job and I know that she is so very proud of you.
twistedpuppetogtwistedpuppetog on May 22nd, 2010 03:38 am (UTC)
Thank you. :)