Dear Mr. God :],
We both know that I talk to you on a daily basis, and while it may be brief chit-chat, I know that you know what I'm getting at. I know that you know the underlying circumstances and what it has taken for me to get here... Where I am, and to get here only with you guiding me along.
I didn't know you, for so long, because I had my doubts about you. We both know that I treat you like the greatest friend I've ever had, and you are the only one who can tolerate me when everyone else walks away. For that, and everything else in my life -- but that especially, I am forever grateful; and I don't ask much of you, other than to make sure that I am only making the right choices and that I better mend my heart which breaks so frequently.
I only ask you to make sure to say hello to the friends and family that are enjoying all that you have to offer beyond this life, and that you keep those of us who are still down here looking up safe.
However, I have a big favor to ask of you... I know it's almost like a loaded question, because I have asked this of you three times already this year, but please do this for me, or at least give me the strength to endure even more pessimistic situations.
All I'm asking is that you allow Dan to make it out of the hospital safely. If you need to take him, I understand and I accept that, and I know we've been given a lot of chances already this year, and I am forever grateful for those, but I really need to enjoy some more time with him.
I haven't told him how I wanted to take a million-and-one pictures with him, and how I wanted to do whatever it is that he wants to accomplish before he dies. I want to make things right with him, for the sake of my sanity, before he surrenders his last breath.
I want to give him the world, still... And I don't think that with only being married for a year and two months that I have accomplished that.
You know, I'm going to have a horrible time with blaming myself for not getting all of these things done if he dies soon.
At least, if this is what you have in store for him, please at least him be considered for the liver transplant... Give me something, anything, because I think that I'm losing it all tonight.
What am I supposed to do without the love of my life?
I love you, and like always -- please tell my friends and family that I love them and say, "Hello."
Oh, and PS -- please see that his test tomorrow morning goes well, because you know how much of a tolerance he has for anesthetics, and that his cultures come out alright, but let him be transfered down to Indianapolis... Because I only feel comfortable with them, when it comes to knowing what to do with his liver.
Current Music: "Look After You," The Fray